my own fairy tale

yesterday, i saw one of my old notebooks lying atop my dresser and i couldn't help but read through pages and reminisce the years when i was still writing poems for myself and for my friends.. suddenly, nostalgia breaks away from my grasp and had me walking down memory lane..

my fingers walked through the pages of my notebook and voila! i found myself reading my very own Fairy Tale which i have originally written in year 2000.. ohmygosh! it was about a masked stranger, a princess and a vampire.. wow, cool!! so my fascination with vampires started in College, huh... i just realized, my addiction to vampires have grown massively. *rolls eyes*yeah that Twilight thing again!*.

anyways, back to my nostalgic memory, let me share with you the poem or tale that i have composed almost 10 years ago, (dated August 25, 1999 to be exact)... it is about a princess, which i named CLAIRE, *of course, i should be the starring role!* and her adventure with a masked man and a vampire who almost slit her throat.. ugh! anyway, i think i made this "fairy tale" the day after our college Students' Day (after i got hand-cuffed in a marriage booth! uyy kilig!)

okay.. here goes my Fairy Tale...

Once upon a time, a tale brought forth the roar of the tides,
that clashed through waves across the miles..
In this infinite dimension, a flowing desert appeared,
which created shadows that cast each day of the year...


Once upon a time, a castle stood still with brilliance,
with the wind that breezed through the golden sand,
A Castle within the breast of the ocean and the earth,
embraced the pillows of a princess at birth...

Days, months and years have passed,
the little baby princess bloomed at last,
Given the name Claire, so delicate & full of charm
Serenaded by a throng of lads, from near & far..

The beautiful princess was loved by everyone,
kings & dukes courted her, even from faraway kingdoms..
but she wasn't interested in any of them, so no one compelled
for she was after the man on the book that she have read..

One starless night, gazing from the window,
a shadow moved along the golden wall..
turning her head, the princess gasped for breath
when a masked stranger approached and scared her to death...

But the man in mysterious mask smiled and said later,
"Don't be afraid, I'm just here to seek for shelter,"
He said, he was being chased by a vampire,
so, like a cat, he crept the castle so high...

Suddenly, a lightning struck and torn the sky,
and a bat-like creature shrieked through the night,
A vampire appeared and fire came out from his burning eyes
but the stranger was quick to avoid the flash of light...

Terrified, Princess Claire ran for her precious life..
through the outskirts of her vast room, she turned to hide,
but the vampire caught her wrist and tried to bite,
as he held her head so high, with all of his might...

The masked man suddenly held out his sword,
a fine sharp lance, shimmering with gold,
with all his power, with full force on one swift move,
he thrust the sword directly to the vampire's throat..

too late... the blood already drifted from the princess shoulder,
but she still managed to glance at the masked stranger..
Expertly, he held the vampire and threw him on the fire
and blinded the devil with a crucifix, until he lost his life..

Dreamily, Claire felt a kiss on her forehead,
but when she opened her eyes, the stranger had vanished..
She thought, she had a nightmare and she became afraid,
yet when she turned around, she found a shoe on her bed...

A year slipped away so fast,
Claire could never forget the man with a mask,
until one day, she went to a masquerade party,
heart beating, she saw the man she longed to see!

"Have you found my left shoe?" was all he asked..
Then he smiled so sweetly, glowing beneath the mask...
Claire held out her hand, longing to touch his face,
she was held in a trance, she didn't know what to say..

The man stole a kiss and said, "I miss you, my dear princess"
She asked for his name, but at first he hesitated...
Instead, he removed his mask and asked for her hand,
but Claire's steps retreated and ran as fast as she can..

Surprised, with eyes so wide, she turned her back,
she went to her room and saw her book, torn & scratched,
a page was missing, was all she could see,
amidst the dark lonely night, the moon shone brightly...

Slowly, she traced back her steps and returned to the ball
still expecting to see her masked man dancing on the hall,
down the corridor, she saw him glanced above and grinned,
when he smiled his sweetest smile, she knew this was no longer a dream..

Claire and her prince danced through the night,
when daytime broke, she let out a sigh,
"Will you marry me? "the prince proposed to her,
and soon they lived happily ever after...

expressions...

the complications of love...

how complicated is love?

this question just popped up on my mind a while ago when i was talking with a dear friend. apparently, she's having a tough time with her love life.. or the lack of it..

you see, my friend, Camille, is somewhat confused because of a guy (let's call him Phil) who seems to have feelings for her. yes, Phil's adorable, responsible, well-mannered, God fearing and loving.. he has a good head on his shoulders and has qualites that easily attracts opposite sex.. however, this guy admitted that there is also someone else he considers special in his life (let's call the other special girl, Lauren).. but, he is not courting Lauren either..

while pondering on this, i tried to speak out what's on my mind and told Camille to forget about the guy.. in the first place, he isn't actually courting Camille - well, not yet.

Phil doesn't believe in courtship.. but Camille is a hopeless romantic, just like me.. i know most of the girls would like that from a guy - to be swoon & serenaded & courted - those kinds of stuffs.. so, if Phil is sooo not into those kinds of manifestation, then it means = minus pogi points..

but then again, Phil isn't into those kinds of love expressions. he's more into actions speak louder than words.. he wants a relationship to start with Magic! like when he is inlove with the girl, all he wants is for them to look at each other in the eye and sparks will fly away and boom! love starts..

anyway, my friend, Camille, started to doubt her feelings for the guy when she learned about the closeness of Phil and Lauren. he considers Lauren special. they are at ease with each other, they're so close, that when you see their body talk, it is as if they were really meant for each other. but he never discloses his intention or feelings for her.

on the other hand, he and Camille are also close in a somewhat more conventional way.. they exchange thoughts when they have a chance to talk.. they express / send sincere messages through SMS.. but when they are with their churchmates, they somewhat distance themselves from each other, for fear of getting close to each other, but the longing to be with one another is there..

get my drift? hmmm.. i don't think so.. that's why it is kinda complicated.. it is as if the guy is torn between two lovers. clearly, Camille have feelings for Phil .. but right now, Camille tries to shy away from him, to give him space and let him think better.. but Camille feels like she's on the edge of her seat when she does not hear anything from the guy.. she admitted to me that her day is not entirely complete if she never receive any info about Phil.. and she admits that she is hurting whenever she sees Phil & Lauren behave like childhood sweethearts in front of her..

yes, clearly, Camille is in love.. but of course, my girl won't make the first move... but what if Phil will never ever make the first move? what if Phil really likes Lauren but is afraid of getting dumped? what if he is just comfortable being around Lauren? what if the person he really likes is Camille? and what's gonna happen to Camille's feelings if she'll decide to totally forget all about Phil?

ahhh.. love is indeed mysterious.. sometimes, you can't have it both ways, you can never win and lose at the same time.. love is a many splendored things.. i can totally go on and babble all about love, and this question remains - how will love find it's way through Camille, Phil & Lauren?

the answer is simple - GOD. i told Camille to pray as hard as she can, pray for strength to be able to withstand whatever that is holding her back.. pray for guidance and deliverance.. and ask for a sign from HIM..

nevertheless, we also asked our colleague, Joshua about his opinion on this matter. luckily, Joshua had a lot of good things to say about it. he said, it is only natural for the girl to feel a little jealous when she knows that the apple of her eye is being smitten by another person. fromo a guy's perspective, he suggested Camille to do everything it takes to win the confidence of the man. but not in a competitive way.. to do this, she must somehow show the guy that there are things that she can do like care for him, be there for him when he needs help, always listen and continue spending time for that person even if she is busy.. it somehow helps a man to choose better if he knows the things that the other person may not be able to give.. upon hearing Joshua's words, Camille and I pondered and realized that it really helps when you talk to a guy who have experienced this situation. at least somehow, Camille learns something from a man's perspective...

how about you? have you even been in a situation like this? love is indeed complicated, but once yo get ithrough it, you know you will be on the right track...

P.S.. the situation above is true, however, i decided to change the names of the persons involve for security reasons & due to Camille's insistence.. because we never know if Phil is reading this..

my life...

i just want to try something...

one of my favorite Twilight scenes...

bookworming...

-posted / written by claire

last Friday - i finished reading Breaking Dawn (after 4 days!) but i still want to read more about the Cullens.. i really wish Stephenie Meyer would finish Midnight Sun so every twilighter would be as happy as Bella.. hehehe..

Saturday-Sunday - i went back to reading John Saul's Cry for the Strangers.. Saul's books always freaks me out but i love how he always ends his stories with a twist...(and hanging..)

Monday - rest day for reading... apparently, i've read all the books tucked in my dresser (i have a small library inside my dresser, huh!) so i asked my colleague, Elmo if he could ask some books from his girlfriend at the Holy Angel University..

Tuesday - i finally had my hands on Paolo Coelho's By the River Piedra I sat Down & Wept and Like the Flowing River.. thanks so much Mitch!! (elmo's gf is sooo cool!!!) a long time ago, i've read The Alchemist and i felt a connection with the author.. so i promised myself that if i get the chance & time, i'll be scouring the libraries & bookstores to look for Paolo Coelho's master pieces.. luckily, i was able to borrow two of his books from the University.. :)

Wednesday - i finished By the River Piedra I Sat Down & Wept - and i also literally wept after reading it..

Thursday - as of this moment, i got my eyes on Like the Flowing River and i'm learning a lot from the compilation of short stories and thoughts of Paolo's...

tomorrow, Friday - hopefully, i'll be able to finish the book above and take a rest.. my eyesight isn't doing any good lately.. i need new glasses!!

i love you

weekend bites

thank goodness, the week is about to end.. time to stay close to my family and bring some cheer to my kidlets.. we'll bve spending the weekend in Mexico and i'm sure my kiddos will have a great time with my in-laws..

good thing my little Kian is now well.. thanks so much, everyone for your concern on my sons' well-being..

may all of us have a great weekend ahead... i sure am going to have a wonderful one!! ohyes! my hubby promised me a date on Sunday.. yipeee!!!

'till next time everyone..

my twilight character

i'm an addict.. Twilight is my own brand of heroin.. i dazzle whenever i am around my true love.. i love everything about Twilight & the Cullens.. why should i not be? i am one of them..

hahaha.. chuckles! i know that i am very like Alice.. i love her character so much! but i'd still love to fall in love with Edward.. sheesh!

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