the love letter...

i can still remember the days when i was falling in love with my husband... or should i say - boyfriend, back then.. in fact, i even blogged about it when i was still using my account in diaryland.com.. walking down memory lane, i can't help but smile and think of how my life has changed when i realized that i was indeed in-love with Marc...

here, let me share with you this unsent letter i made for Marc and how it all started..

Marc,

You disturb my mind all the time...

when everything seems wrong for me, you happen to cross my path and then make things right..

i ignore you, but when you're gone, i love to see you..

i try to avoid you... then lately i realized, i wanna be with you.

you pass along my way and i pretend i see nothing. but when you walk away from me, my heart shatters and cries, "i terribly miss you"...

i simply cannot understand myself...can somebody tell me why do i feel this way? have i done anything wrong? is this my karma?

i do things i don't want to do..

i feel something strange for you...

perhaps this is what people refer to as MAGIC!

seems like you cast a spell on me.. seems like you hypnotized me.. or maybe, you sprinkled me with a love potion, so strong, that i couldn't bear to be away from you..

or this may be a feeling only a heart knows...

yes, i hear my heart beating the words... "i'm falling in love with you..."

ohmygosh.. was i hopeless romantic, or what? i sounded like i was head over heels in love.. well, that's true.. and still, i am - definitely in love with my husband..

crazy li'l thing called LOVE

this is gonna be a three-part post.. i promised my friend i'm gonna blog
something about the crazy little thing called LOVE ...

part 1: THE FEELING

actually, this started last Monday afternoon, when i received an e-mail from my good friend, Camille.. she asked me: "Paano mo malalaman na nadedevelop ka na sa isang tao?...

the question brought a smile to my face.. i rekindled the times when i started having this feeling for my honey :).. anyway, this is what i had to say:

Alam mong nadedevelop ka na sa isang tao kapag:

palagi mo syang iniisip..

sa tingin mo hindi kompleto ang araw mo pag di mo sya nakikita

Nagseselos ka pag nalaman mo na may crush syang iba or nababanggit nya yung pangalan ng ibang babae

Di ka makatulog

Madalas hinihintay mo yung text nya or tawag nya

Gusto mo lagi kayong magkasama

Iniimagine mo yung future na magkasama kayo

Minsan pag magkasama kayo gusto mo huminto or bumagal ang oras

Nag-iismile ka na lang mag-isa pag naiisip mo sya

Malakas ang kabog ng dibdib mo pag kaharap mo sya

Intersado ka pag may narinig ka tungkol sa kanya

Palagi kang kumakanta

those signs are actually based on what i had felt when i think i was falling for my husband, Marc.. ahhh.. those "nakakakilig" moments always brought butterflies in my stomach.. the feeling was awesome.. it's like you never wanted to wake up in a beautiful dream - because you are afraid that it would turn into a nightmare if you open your eyes..

for Camille, although i asked her if she felt the above-mentioned signs, she opted not to tell me anything about it. which is okay with me, since i respect her privacy... BUT, if my guess is right, i think she is "hopelessley falling" for Phil.. it's a good thing to feel like your feet are on air dancing with the wind.. and it's a pretty good thing to see my friend blushing and smiling with twinkling eyes..

will this feeling ever end? let's see as we journey through her love life - when she finally had "alone time" with Phil...

*** to be continued ***

falling in love..

part 2: THE EVENT

Monday night, my friend, Camille decided to extend 2 hours more (overtime) at the office and proceed to her churchmate's despedida party.. minutes before going home, she received a text message from no less than Phil, the man who was sending radio-active waves in her heart - the man who has been confused with his feelings for almost a year now...

anyway, i learned yesterday that Camille's heart was on a roller-coaster ride when she met with Phil after work.. ooopss! make that "a motorcycle-ride"... apparently, Phil decided to pick up Camille at a gas station so they can meet up with their other friends.. Camille was surprised to see him on his bike, much more with the fact that he was alone! hmmm.. i remember when i teased her before if she would ride on Phil's motorbike and now it happened! Camille didn't show how afraid she was that night (because of a wild crazy fellow she saw on the street) but she was in high spirits, knowing that she was with the man who has been invading her sleep.. but, being the "conservative" that she is, she didn't let her emotions show while she was alone with him on his big bike..

when Camille & Phil reached their destination, the crowd went wild and had the time of their lives upon seeing the couple. it has been a non-stop chatter at the party, with constant teasing from the people around them. the blushing couple had no choice but to smile and pretend like they weren't hearing anything..

fast forward to the time when they were about to go home, Camille's colleagues were still shrieking with delight and teasing the pair.. they like to see Phil take Camille home - for her safety, albeit.. although Phil was adamant to see her safe back at her abode, Camille declined his offer.

later that night, sleep wasn't inviting.. she tossed her pillows from left to right, moved up and about, shifted to all kinds of sleeping position, but her mind and body was wide awake.. she insisted that it was due to the coffee that she drunk during the party - aside from the fact that she was thinking about Phil..

i was actually surprised the next morning - Tuesday - to see Camille taking overtime hours again! talk about the effects of falling in love.. hehehe.. she still insisted that it was coffee that made her awake all night and all day the next day.. the rest of the day went well, with me, looking at her from afar, noticing the pink in her cheeks and the stars in her eyes..

from what i had seen, i'd say, this girl has definitely fallen in love...

this thing called Love

part 3: THE ADVICE

Going back to my friend Camille, for the moments of bliss that transpired that night, i am sure that she has asked for His Guiding Light - for her to see which path to take.. if Camille strongly feels the same for Phil, then she's definitely been bitten by the Love bug...for you my friend, whatever the outcome of this would be, i wish you all the best!

Just always remember that Love has its own time. It is indeed a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it's a mystery why some love fails.

Sometimes, hopefully, at least once in your life --- the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of t and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart. If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love the person, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different. If you fall in love with another, and the person falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning.

You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, and as you go along the way, keep up spirits high, feel the air beneath your wings and let God help you find your one true love.. :)

soulmates

She was the yin to his yang.
He was the dot to her “i”.
When she was black or white,
he was her colors in between.

He finished her sentence
she felt his thoughts.

They understood from the inside out
because that’s how they began.

She was the words and he the notes
together, an endless song.

He was her real after surreal dreams
she the pier where he anchored his soul.

He was the rope when all else pulled her away
she was his lamp in the dark.

Hers were the blue that mirrored the brown
in the looking glass eyes of the heart.

She was the soft to his hard
and when the door had closed
oh, when the lights blinked out …

they were as both fire and ice
blurring the lines
between the she and the he

until he was time
she the clock
and together, an eternity.

love love love...

lovestruck

in my office, at least 4 people have split up with their respective boyfriend-girlfriends this month.. the ladies – ended up wth broken hearts because their men are afraid to commit.. while the gents – also cried buckets of tears because their ladyloves have found another man to fill in their shoes..

but as they say, love moves in mysterious ways.. one thing that makes us abuzz is the blossoming love story/ love triangle of my two dear friends, Izza and Camille.

Let’s start with Izza…She’s the same person who consulted me a week ago about falling in love – with a younger man, Troy.. but here’s the issue today – apparently, somebody else in my team has fallen head over heels with her guy..that someone else is Pia.

well, it's not actually Izza's fault if she's the one that Troy is courting. it just so happened that Pia may have long suppressed her feelings for Troy and now she's kinda hurt because it is her friend that Troy loves and not her.. tsk tsk tsk.. but as far as i can see it, Troy will end up with Izza in the future because their feelings are mutual.. i wish them all the best..

with regards to camille's complicated love triangle, well, she is still not sure if she should still get close with Phil. lately, there'd been exciting news from "paparazzis" that the man involved is somehow weighing his options and looks like camille is seeing the brighter side.. hmm, well and good for her - and him too, if that is the case..

from time to time, i see how camille's eyes twinkle when she receives text messages from phil.. and she's got the sweetest smiles when she talks or shares about him.. i'm seeing her lighter side.. and i'm happy for her.. hopefully, everything will turn out fine for both of them.. :)

though there had been developments recently with my other friend, Jack, who admitted that he was falling for Camille.. Jack & Camille are two of my closed friends.. unfortunately, camille doesn't return the emotions.. anyway, he countered that he will just talk to God so he can be enlightened and make sure that what he's feeling is simpy infatuation..

ahhh.. love is in the air here in the office.. my advice to all of them is this: Don't look for love, because Love will fins its own way to your heart..